fearing nearing obsession,
yourestillhereyourestillhereyourestillhere!!! INSIDE ME
this is why it’s become hard to look to the sky!
something I can’t face
baby,
youre here (“whether we like it or not”]]
our stars keeping an eyewatch. measuring their own brightness,
attempting to tempt me on board-
something is wrong
This verges on becoming some prevention method; some extra cyclic sickness
i fear
what if we’ve lost the youth of our connection??
the deeper we go the more difficult it becomes to emerge. skin layers then need peeling
and blood always comes, at least a dusting.
I AM SICK, DEAR, ARE YOU SICK? IS TIME WASTING US FURTHER? BECAUSE OF ME, IS NECESSARY WORK GOING TO SEED without planting?
I’ve never grasped so hard for religion
never needed any guiding
or doubted my impulses
never did I want a set of rules to follow
any sort of panacea
but now that I know everything is so wrong I feel I must scramble to discover and make rightness
now that living requires this much energy
and even more faith
i’m doing nothing. I’m being less.
please please dont blame me for any failings
please please i am too weak will comply-bend-falter-knees collapse into fallen pickles in a dehydrated stack of leather satchels limply weir-els
where is the purpose drive
and why cant i find it within me like always before
this current constant death and apathy
my neck breaks