my falsehood was a louse
silent chigger in the skin
it gnawed on from the inside
and I gave that to you.
transmuting dis-ease
I sat there in forgetful silence
we choose what to forget
.
I pulled away your ground.
.
made fun of perfection
toppled trees like I was shedding clothes
for someone uncaring
.
How, this possibility? paradox obscene, serene
why this love tells me
I’m here , a broken azure egg
appearing next to death
and its quiet crashing waves
.
god revere the martyr
god humming ‘bove the body
deny its form and float in all
.
feel waves
prostrate to the fields
ants run on my skin as friends
like dogs,
your fingers showing them the way and mine just getting in the way.
.
it’s not about deserving
it could have been helped but it was not
i made waste and took for granted
while icing german chocolate Cake
.
favourite Leo
burning tall grass on surround
making water for its system with words of vapour
dripping 2 mi undeserving ears.
.
Die happy
surroundin recognition
the world speaks to your greatness
with a finger placed sole to your lips.
.
Lips who found I
Lips who made I again
Lips who live on to touch Lips in dampened hours
Lips can go wherever, I keep them contained next with Myne.
.
eternally forgivable.
and myself?
.
I will not forgive myself for treating you as static.
I will not forgive myself for taking you for granted.
I will not forgive myself for lying or keeping secrets.
I will not forgive myself for fleeing when you needed me.
I will not forgive myself for muddling truth.
I will not forgive myself for seeing your actions as if they were independent of the shadows I hung over our pair.
I will not forgive myself for making you less than You Are.
I will not forgive myself for tarnishing what could have been perfection.
I will not forgive myself for selfishness.
I will not forgive myself for changing my mind.
I will not forgive myself for laying a parasite at God’s doorstep
and interrupting children’s playing
with silent cancerous mass.
I will not forgive myself
for giving you dis-ease. Rumbling and roiling your within and veiling its source.
made a man change n poured toxins in my own wounds
.
purity is invincible
love is all
light is blinding and finds every nook
it fills, easily, as water does complete
but never obscures
only peels back
and banishes mold
.
.
If I loved you again, I’d love you well. If you could see the moon in my face and strength of stomach. If you felt the stillness and you trusted
I’d love you like you ought to Live
most High
Jah, I’d let you spin and tail and take your please
I’d even quell and sit my corner
or go out to dance on wine.
I’d take hits and recommence,
pouring ocean and walking to your chest for all return.
Saddle on, but wild horses
world speak 4 galactic Good
none but your surroundings mention all the greatness
you disseminate from Health
.
Weigh I known 2 let
time siphon dis blockage
Go
go
and God will heal ur wounds by chance
paradox n paroxyms
uranus spitting fits
and at its core, the Sun
Kronos watching by eventuality
Bigness,
Blessed
.
Moon conjunct Venus conjunct Mars in Taurus conjunct Midheaven, all trine Saturn (who’d entered 2nd house). Jupiter conjunct Neptune conjunct Chiron in the 7th house, trine Sun and sextile Pluto.
